Sunday night. Back from church.

“You can go ahead, honey. I don’t feel like sleeping yet”, he said, while taking off his coat. “But I’ll miss you”, she said, pulling him by his hand. Feeling his mind was wondering about something that had nothing to do with the her words and not getting the eye contact she wanted, she sighed, let go of him and added, “Try not staying up too late.” Hayley put on the grey vintage pyjamas she won as a wedding present from her cousin, brushed her teeth and smiled remembering the wonderful honeymoon she had with her husband 8 months ago, wishing she could go back in time and relive those golden days. Everything seemed so different now, but maybe that was normal. After all, she thought to herself, relationships shouldn’t be based in sexual romance, and she should be grateful her companion realised that too. Kyle was in the living-room, sitting on his favourite chair. His thick brown hair covered one eye while the other was fixed on the laptop screen. “Hot babes” was typed on a search page and his usual Sunday night porn tour had begun. Click. It’s just one after all. Click. Just a few. Click. Faster breaths. Click. Legs more apart. Click. Muscle tension. Click. Swallow. Click. Self control. Click. Hands sweating. Click. 2 o’clock. Click. Click. Click. Click click click click click… “Kyle?” Puffing. “Kyle!” He turns around. “I can’t sleep,” Hayley said, dragging a pillow on the floor. She gets closer and sees Kyle’s tears. “Sweetie, what’s wrong?” Kyle stops her from hugging him and maximizes his web page. A picture of a naked woman in a sensual pose appears. “This. THIS is wrong!” Kyle cries. “This woman. These women! This is so stupid! I’M so stupid! I don’t understand!” Hayley just stood there, paralysed, looking at the screen. “Hayley, I love you. Will you ever forgive me?” “How long?” “How long what?” “For how long have you been doing this?” “I’m sorry.” “HOW LONG?” “Every Sunday night… about 4 months ago I think. I’m not sure… I…” “Goodbye, Kyle.” “Hayley, no! Wait!” She rushed off out of the house’s front door and ran desperately in hope of a solution, only stopping at an old rusted window to look at her reflection. “Hayley! Please!” Kyle’s voice echoed in the road. He was at the other side of it and ran towards her. He knelt down and hugged her legs while she stayed in silent. The cold wind cut their faces and sent Hayley to the ground. “Leave me alone!”, she cried, “I hate you!” But Kyle just held on tighter.

(…)

So, I was going to make a short story out of this, but have just realised it’d take several of pages to write what’s happened to both of them, that would explain when Kyle’s addiction to porn started and how Hayley lived and regained hope in true love after the incident. I’ll leave it up to you to imagine the rest of the drama and think about this issue. Have fun! 🙂

Oh, and by the way, it’s a fact that Sunday night is the time that most people look at porn. Right after going to a church meeting, yes. For those who’d like to know more about the subject, are struggling with it or knows someone that is and would like to help them, take a look at this site: xxxchurch

“If your right eye causes you to sin, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to be thrown into hell.” – Matthew 5:29

“And if your eye causes you to sin, gouge it out and throw it away. It is better for you to enter life with one eye than to have two eyes and be thrown into the fire of hell.” – Matthew 18:9

“And if your eye causes you to sin, pluck it out. It is better for you to enter the kingdom of God with one eye than to have two eyes and be thrown into hell,” – Mark 9:47

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6 thoughts on “Sunday night. Back from church.

  1. Sis says:

    So many people underestimate how damaging porn is. Thanks for this realistic viewpoint.

  2. ediddydub says:

    Hey MTP:

    Your post is one of the hardest topics to discuss because people often frown upon the thought that Christians struggle with addictions. Whether it be porn, drugs, sex, drinking, gambling, playing video games, overeating, or whatever it is, addiction is addiction, and it is HARD to overcome something that 1) the person wants to do, and/or 2) the body, mind, and heart are so accustomed to doing. I have learned for myself that until pleasing God becomes an addiction, until loving God becomes that High that I long for, sin will always override my willingness to live for God. Thank God that I serve a God who despite my flaws loves me enough to have waited on me to figure out what matters most to me. Again, this is a hard subject, but a necessary subject to discuss more on and get into the open more because EVERYONE is addicted to something. Anything we place over God has the potential to become an addiction, for the Word of God says that we shall have no other gods before Him. Holla back!

    😀

    • Thanks for passing by! It’s a really powerful realisation to know that only by being addicted to giving God glory at all times is that we can shut down any other addictions, for everything we’ll do will be directly linked to our relationship with Him. God certainly is very merciful! In the story, Hayley would have to make a huge effort to forgive Kyle for that addiction and be willing to “start over”. Sometimes we forget how loving our Lord is to have forgiven us from all of the bad things we’ve done and will do.

  3. Reem says:

    being a muslim and sharing similar values with the christian faith i did enjoy this read- thanks for exploring a subject which marriages of all faithes are being harmed by due to the media..whats the solution? returning towards God & spending more time building marriages rather than just letting go..

    • It’s very sad to know that the great majority of people are exposed to wrong images, sounds and values that distort love into lust. Taking, for example, a woman’s picture on a magazine that moulds her as sexual object doesn’t only make damages to all the women who see it and keep comparing themselves in a degrading way that leads to multiple depressive symptoms including eating disorders, it’s also very bad for men because it leads them to unholy thoughts and, in worse but sadly not uncommon cases, porn addiction.
      I like the solution you’ve given! By keeping focused on God we won’t let those things into our lives. I believe spending more time building marriages has a lot to do with the couple’s communication. If in this story Kyle told Hayley what was happening not too long after he had fallen into that sin, it would’ve been easier to fix things. And if their relationship had a strong foundation none of that would have happened!
      Thanks for reading and commenting!

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