Facebookian emotions

If you, like me, have made various assumptions of the Facebook lifestyle, I highly reccomend the reading of this post by Jonathan Sherwin.

Christians, I believe, should keep watch on their online selves. Not just on what they post, like and comment on, but also on what feelings they are having by just viewing other people’s pictures and reading what they say. Emotions are very important, and if you’ve been feeling un-Godly ones, be careful! Do not cause your eyes to make you sin. On the first jealousy, greed or anger feeling you have because of something you’ve seen, you should close the web page, pray about it immediately and ask God for help. If need be, abstain from Facebook (or whatever social networking page it is) for a while until the Holy Spirit tells you you’re ready to use it again. I believe God can use Facebook for the good, but we, as Christians, have to have our full armour on so that we are prepared for whatever attacks our integrity.

There was a time when I was feeling so bad because of Facebook that God told me to shut down my account, have a time out (of a few months) and re-do everything later, really thinking about who to add and being very wise with my time on it and what I clicked on, read or felt. It has done me much good.

Anti-intellectualist Christians

Many Christians have not been thinking properly as much as they should be. By just “going with the flow” of what Mr. Society says is right, natural or normal, they aren’t using their minds in a Godly manner, looking like they’ve been blindfolded by religious doctrines.

Here are two quotes that help resume why this subject is so important and urgent:

“Our churches are filled with Christians who are idling in intellectual neutral. As Christians, their minds are going to waste. One result of this is an immature, superficial faith. People who simply ride the roller coaster of emotional experience are cheating themselves out of a deeper and richer Christian faith by neglecting the intellectual side of that faith.”
—William Lane Craig

“At root, evangelical anti-intellectualism is both a scandal and a sin. It is a scandal in the sense of being an offense and a stumbling block that needlessly hinders serious people from considering the Christian faith and coming to Christ. It is a sin because it is a refusal, contrary to Jesus’ two great commandments, to love the Lord our God with our minds. Anti-intellectualism is quite simply a sin. Evangelicals must address it as such, beyond all excuses, evasions, or rationalizations of false piety.”
—Os Guinness

Jesus said this is the first and greatest (very important and essential to Christian life) commandment: “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.” Matthew 22:37

But doesn’t the mind think evil things and is therefore a dangerous tool to use? Well, who’s created the mind? “Who has put wisdom in the inward parts or given understanding to the mind?” Job 38:36 God has!

What’s so bad about “going with the flow”? “A man is commended according to his good sense, but one of twisted mind is despised.” Proverbs 12:8

Should the whole Church exercise their minds, or just the leaders? “I appeal to you, brothers, by the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that all of you agree, and that there be no divisions among you, but that you be united in the same mind and the same judgment.” 1 Corinthians 1:10

Can God help me be wise? “If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who gives generously to all without reproach, and it will be given him.” James 1:5

What should we be setting our minds on? “But he turned and said to Peter, “Get behind me, Satan! You are a hindrance to me. For you are not setting your mind on the things of God, but on the things of man.” Matthew 16:23

“Now this I say and testify in the Lord, that you must no longer walk as the Gentiles do, in the futility of their minds. They are darkened in their understanding, alienated from the life of God because of the ignorance that is in them, due to their hardness of heart.” Ephesians 4:17-18

May we pray unto God “Prove me, O LORD, and try me; test my heart and my mind.” Psalms 26:2 so that we can improve our Christian thinking caps and expand the Kingdom!

C’est fini!

After 3 years and a few months of being on high doses of medication because of panic attacks and severe depression, I can now say “C’EST FINI”, at last, in June 2013! I hope this post helps one have a greater understanding of what it is like to be free from something like that. It may be compared to being free from alcohol or any other type of drugs.

As the medication I was taking was strong, I had to start putting it to an end in slow phases. But, my family was passing through a difficult financial time and paying for them was getting very hard. To make things worse, my doctor couldn’t see me anymore. He had been replaced by another doctor that basically shouted at me that I wasn’t making any worthy recoveries and that I wasn’t doing my best to get out of depression and there were lots of patients he had to see and I was wasting his time. Needless to say, I had a panic attack and never went back there again. We searched for other psychiatrists, but they were all too expensive or far away. I felt hopeless and scared. After 3 years of taking pills every day and basically depending on them, I had to make the step of stopping. On my own. The thing is, even by stopping slowly (taking lesser pills a day), I still felt really bad. My brain was so used to the chemicals. Not having them (or having them in less quantities) was hard to handle. I felt weak, sore and depressed. But something inside me told me I had to stop taking the medications sooner or later, and that now was the best time to do so. I had a wedding coming up (MY wedding) and wanted to start my married life committed and depending on my husband, not pills.

As I said, my family was out of money and I was needing medication. As you know, we are Christians and believe in the power of prayer. My dad was asked to preach somewhere and there, a man he never saw came up to him and said he asked someone to give him a lift home, since it was almost starting to rain and my dad had to catch a bus and walk a lot. On the way, the man told my dad he had a strange dream that he was with a pastor in a car, the sky was very cloudy and he gave him money for medication. Then my dad said, “Well, I’m a pastor, you’re driving me home, there are the clouds and here’s the prescription. My daughter really needs this medication and I had no idea how I was going to pay for it.” The man then gave him the right amount of money to pay for my last pieces of expensive medication. Praise the Lord! It had ended at the right time for the wedding preparations.

Anyway, being out of medication is a big thing for me. It feels strange, to say the least. I don’t have it in my daily routine anymore and sometimes I feel quite lost without it. Don’t get me wrong, I love the fact I’m finally free from it. It’s just that it’s been part of my every day life for so long that without it it feels like something’s missing. I feel liberated, but scared. Weak, but powerful. I can’t put in words all these sensations. It’s hard, and sometimes I miss taking pills, but I don’t want to go back. Oh, no!

In resume, I think that miraculous event shows how God always takes care of us, and uses human-made things (medication) for our own good. I know He is healing me and I can testify that boldly. If He had healed me, say, one week into depression, so that I didn’t have to take any pills at all, I wouldn’t have all the experiences I have today, and not be able to help others in similar situations. God’s timing is perfect. He is constantly perfecting and teaching us. We do not know His ways. Our job is to trust in Him and have faith that the best is yet to come.